HI GUIS!
i'm not going to bother to apologize because i know it means NOTHING TO YOU ALL.

been writing more. been getting better.

read the last harry potter book and accidentally fell in love with the series all over again. AND FUCK YOU JK ROWLING FOR KILLING FRED WEASLEY. FUCK YOU SO HARD WITHOUT LUBE. SOMEONE WHINE AND CRY WITH ME ABOUT THIS DAMMIT ;-;

my computer at home is too fucked up for me to even TRY to upload anything.

i've been growing a lot being so lonely and fending for myself and not having any secure ground beneath me at a new school. so i'm trying to be a better person and expand my mind and all that cool shit on my own.

somewhere along the way growing up stopped being fun. i can't wait till i can get out of here and breathe for once.

nina (aka kris) is my BIFF YA HEARD. she is the bridge over this river of shit and self doubt i'm swimming in. <333

i'd really love someone to make out with. really. seriously this has been bugging me for such a long time GOD DAMMIT.

HAHA NONE OF YOU GUYS CARE ABOUT THIS AT ALL.
I BE IN UR DEVIANTART, SPAMMING UR INBOXZ.

i'll try better this time. i know i say that everytime and then leave again but really. maybe. i don't know.

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so i'm trying to do some cleaning in my gallery, because most of it is excruciatingly embaressing
but there's no option to scrap it?!

what the hell DDDD:
some please tell me what's up because i don't want to have to delete everything.

also, happy holidays guys. I'M SORRY I SUCK SO MUCH, REALLY.

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i am SO BEHIND IN THIS PLACE, HAH.
i'm going to try to...clean it up here and maybe be on more often?
i kind of have no art, and just about no decent/properly composed writing to put up, so. don't expect more than maybe a bit of my wicked shitty photography.

for those of you still here, how are you?

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first day of school.
WAY TO FUCKING GO.

too much little shit happened today.
ugh.

i need some friends.

where have i been?

summer this year has been an amazing dreadful time. i've had nothing to do all summer. i've lost many people who were very important to me, and starting not caring about those i did love. this is still the same, though i'm over a lot of shit. just over it.

i don't really post journals anymore, as you can obviously see. i don't know why, i guess i've become bored with it :\ you can still read my blog though, mostly in some sort of poetic verse or metaphor, but you'll have to ask me for the link.

my life right now is in this rut where nothing is happening, good or bad. i hope that changes when i start school in about two weeks. really, i'm getting so bored.

i don't know if i've grown up because of all of the shit that's happened during freshman year. i don't know. i still feel just as confused, just as pathetic, just as stupid. i think the reason that i thought so much about all of this is because i had no one to distract me.

what i think i need now is a best friend, or just someone i can put as number one. someone i can spend time thinking about and spend time with and just enjoy the rest of my highschool career with.

this is just a little update to those who were maybe worried or just curious. i'm alright. i'm not good, deffinetly not great, but i'm okay. i'll make it. just wish me luck.

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